Saturday, July 30, 2016

无题

部落格你好吗?把你丢下三年多了。对不起,我有来这儿发泄了。我不想负能量带给身边的朋友和家人。
其实,我想跟你说,最近工作不愉快。为何呢?因为公司的上司很厉害做SATAY,让我啞巴吃黃蓮,有苦說不清。
说实话,她不是我的部门的上司,她没有权力去挑三挑四。就算她有,也要挑的对。这个,她X的。开会又不专心,Table cloth 商场说了会供应,为何说我和我的同事忘记带?害到我的同事大遥远的回去公司拿,现在什么问题都出现,她就开始拍马屁,在WHATAPSS group 开始问三问四,我已经在开会说了bunting 换成 foam board ,强调地说,我在每个开会都说了,设计我也画了,她还要问这放哪儿。Aunty,商场9点没开门,要我们去那里买矿泉水?
还有还有,gift list已经放好了在GIFT BOX 里,为何要问在哪儿?我拨了电话给你,你说我该放在容易找的地方,EH EH EH, LIST 当然放在它自己的箱子 里。那你告诉我放去哪里?难道塞进你的屁股里。
就因为你,害我给骂。你知道吗,我SET UP到多少点?你又不是 EVENT COORDINATOR,你装什么懂?她妈的,原来土人永远不会进步就是有这种没那么大的头,要戴这么大的帽子。这不是一次了。我看你精神上有问题,所以和丈夫离了婚。
其实,我很想享受这分工,奉献给这个公司,但因为你们有点种族歧视,不对,是蛋里挑骨,那也不对,不知怎么说好,总而言之,我不会付出百分百。还有,对不起,YOU LOST MY RESPECT.

#一肚火。

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

喘不过气来

在这个10个月内,换了三分工。换的理由只有那两样,经验和面包。 第一份,是往经验而跑,但放弃了面包,现在这一份是为面包而做。

做了块半年了,换了高层,开始追不上公司的前进,和他们限定的目标,喘不过气来,偶尔会失眠,压力,脾气暴躁。

面包,经验,还有什么?爱情? 别说了,没有面包,哪来爱情?缺少的就是梦想。开始问自己,我的梦想是什么?连本人都不知道自己梦想是什么?没梦的人,就没方向感,没方向感,就没那股推动力,开始在自己的生活消失,往下波奔跑了,进入低潮。

有没有本书叫寻梦 当初的梦想呢? 还是这个现象都出现在这个年代的人?没梦,只好行尸走肉的过每一天?


看来,是时候,放下一切,拿个长假,逃里一阵子,监考自我,在为自己寻梦


Monday, October 29, 2012

My life in UK

Update! Update! Lots of people keep on telling me to update my blog especially my uk life. Here is it,peps. Sorry for the wait.

Since small, I m telling people that I wish to study aboard especially UK (influence by both of my UK graduates aunt), and now my dream come true. Here am I, UK

I m doing fine here, apparently very good, foods can be easily found at here, people here are helpful and friendly nd best part is I dont have home sick.

UK so big,you guys will ask me which part of UK i in. Erm. Sheffield the place it call, and small city but yet full of green city. Not to mention ,there are 85 parks in Sheffield. See,how green it was. It make it look like KK, the only make it difference is the weather, and culture

Peace Garden,one of the iconic buidling in Sheffiled. 
more picture can be found from here Sheffield

I spent four months in UK, But is a fruitful four months, went to seven places and have my first begpack in Europe. Below are few places i went in U.K.


Went to city of history- York
Ate the best Fish and Chips in UK in Whitby, and know where is lifejackets come from. Here the link for you to see Whitby


Went to Old Tranford, and Machesther


Blackpool, the city of amusement park and entertainment
Photo-Blackpool


Meeting old friend and explore Liverpool
Here the photos Liverpool day trip


Be a student in Cambridge
Check the photo out in Cambridge

Crazy trip in Leeds
Leeds
Beside those trip, I m able to join some of occasion like Olympic Torch relay, went to church and be Sunday school helper. 


My life here is quiet different with my peers, I took the path different with my peers, I m trying hard to make friends with new people, mix with other, and the result is great, I meet lots of great friends from Malaysia and other countries.

Some of the new friend i made during my stay here 

Funny church members from Malaysia : 1st Row from Left : Sharonne, Eve, She Anne, Me , Jiawen
             2nd Row from left : Sze Shing, and Thomas  3rd Row :Mark


Lovely Qing Qing from China


Like a grandma for me, Aunty Ruth from Indonesia
Angus, physiotherapist from Hong Kong



Not to mention, kk people i meet her, from left Kristen, Elisa, Janice and Avin

Less than 3 months, I made new friends, they come in my life fast as lighting and hopefully we will not lost contact like lighting too.

More pictures can be found at here


Sunday, June 17, 2012

给外婆的信

婆婆:

您在哪里好吗?我这里过得满不错,我好喜欢英国。

昨晚梦见了您,只看到你娇小的背影走进古达的家,我喊了,再喊,但你总是不回头的看一眼,你走的好远好远,就是追不到您,让后你就消失在黑暗里。 您真的离开了我们,这是事实,但一个很难接受的事实。

二十三年,拥有您,是真的很不够,我能自私点?要您陪伴我多一年,短短的一年,能吗?

我知道那是不能,那是上天的安排,我只好接受,您实在太好人了,所以上天叫您回去,陪伴他。



如果我有范玮琪那么开朗就很好了,你成为了平安鸟 ,用另一种方式照顾我们




在飞机上的我,从亚庇到吉隆玻,总是觉得那两个小时是最靠近您。 我好想您,我们都想您。不要担心,我们会过的很好,要保佑我们。

到时再写给您。

  沛恒上

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Sabahan, I m proud of

Stayed  in KL for 1 and a half years, and as a Malaysian, I m fell shame for West Malaysian as most of them need to upgrade their general knowledge.  
Abroad for more than 1 years, my fellow countryman ,west malaysian, still will ask us lots of funny question and hence the purpose of me write this post are answering back sarcastic and post some facts.

Most common questions are : You all still live on Tree? 
Answer: Yes ,we do, and here the samples, it come with different sizes and design.



Lol, the real answer is No, we dont live on tree house or in cave, and i can said most of our houses is bigger than yours, as you all live in expensive but small condo or flat. For you informtation, there are tree house around and it for tourist.

2nd, do you have shopping mall? 
Hey guys, Where can you find Full house, Rip curl, Padini, and other major chain outlets in West Malaysia? Shopping mall right? Ya, we do have, and I think 1 Borneo is bigger than Pavillion but smaller than One Utama, and Mid Valley . In fact, it call hyper mall, and there still more mall coming up. Not to mention, Suria Sabah, where you can find lots of international brands at there.

3rd, hows you guy come to Kl or West malaysia? 
Erm there are only two ways, by steam boat and swim, that how i went to study, first time i swim to there, and onward, i took steam boat. Lol, fact is we can take boat, but it may took week or weeks, and fact again, we have SECOND largest international airport in Malaysia and have five major airport, which most of you dont have.
And in Malaysia, the most air travelers are from Sabah, and i can bet with you, many of you still not yet took an airplane before.

4th, where is Kota Kinabalu? Is it on top of Mount Kinabalu?
Come on brother, how you expect four hunderd people live on a Mountain? this not Denver , is Kota Kinabalu and its beside sea and Mount Kinabalu is 1 hour drive from KK city.

5th, are you guys travel by buffalo or horses?
Buffalo? Oh, you means toyota? you can see them around ,the middle income family will have the common toyota vios and cambry while the wealthy one will have ninja king (land cruiser), horses? mustang or ferrari? i do saw two or three ferrari around in Kk. I think i answer your question and dont make us laugh so hard, stomach pain.

6th question i encounter before, what is sino kadazan? who are they? are they foreigner?
Lol, guys, they are malaysian, and i m one of them. We are children of Chinese and Kadazan or both of our parents are Sino kadazan, in a words that you all understand is Chinese-Kadazan.
One of i proud of is we sabahan live in harmony , seldom have racist issues happen in Sabah, i do have friends of other races, we mix with other races, and you can find chinese eating in Malay stall or different races sitting together and chit chatting


Here are some facts you guys need to know about,

A) 1st survivor series was held in Pulau Tiga,Sabah
B) Amber Chia is from Tawau,Sabah
C) We do have two cites, Kota Kinabalu and Sandakan
D) Diver's paradise island Sipadan is in Sabah and tourist come to Malaysia are visiting Sabah

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

In memory of my Wai Po


I write this just want to keep my memory about you, as human tend to forget when they get older.

You an angel for me, and I’m your Intan, one of the favorite grandchildren.
When I just 1 month old, you been look after me, and shower me with lots of love and care. That why I become one of your favorite. We got a strong bound.

Sometimes or usually your bias, you tend to care me more compare to my siblings, sometime you will only buy nice food for me, everything that come first will belong to me, even I get a much bigger angpow.

There allot of great memories with you. Besides buying ah bo’s egg tart and jam tart to me which until now, Po po also will cook delicious crab for me, and other delicacies.

Po, you still remember, when I was small, you and me will took mini bus to Center Point? And one time, on the ground floor of center point, you pretend throw The RM 1 grow in the dark plastic ball which Shan shan get it from the “egg machine” to middle of nowhere , while you hiding it in your hand, and give me that ball, because I love it so much. Another time , is I brining rm70++ to buy Digimon which ended up is a fake Digimon. 

Po, and one time during chinese new year, you gave me one little pet that ended up on our dining table, the poor crab was tie with rob, and it was pulled back and front by me.

Every time you come to visit me, you will tell me tons of stories about families and me, which you have told me allot of time, but I’m not boring with it. One of it is, when I still little baby, Mum warn you ,not to bath me because she was worry with your health, but you still resist ,by putting me near the door, and bath me, other than that, you will bring me ,watching students end their class because our old house just behind stella maris. You also tell me, how adorable I m because I just like a mini size sumo.

I still remember you like to watch Hokien Movie, and one of the movies called Yi Nan Wan, which got hundred or more episode, you will pint pointing which actor is good and which are evil.

Everytime you meet me, you sure will give me pocket money, even I resited with it, you still will find a way for me to take it.

Some shading memories like you will wait aunty at arriving hall and hug her when she come back from UK, the glass of the arriving hall is light brown color and surround by dark brown color metal. You wearing you pink color cheongsam ,purple long pants and light brown sandals.

Few days ago, you still doing very well, and you still join me watch NBA, and keep on tell me, basketball is dangerous, it can bring any benefit to me. Like usual, you will criticized the cheerleaders are wearing too sexy, and said that is better to get naked.  And on Sat…. …..

I m regretting for not record down all you special delicacies, writing down your life story like pre ,during and after japaness occupied life, bring you around when you ask me to do so, and also visit you when I come back for Semester break, I m foolish enough to neglect with you.

From now on, my life will be change, family tempo also will be change,chinese new year and other celebration will not be same.
 From now on, nobody will touch my hair, telling me ,curly hair people is hard to deal with, and I have a nice curly hair.
From now on,  I don’t have the best homemade chili to dip in, crab to eat, meat boat to swallow, and allot more.
From now on, I lost a shelter, I lost an angel,I lost a motivato, and  I lost the world greatest grand mom.

I miss the time you tell me story, miss your voice, miss you delicacies, and most miss you.
Don’t worry Po, I will study hard, and do well in career ,even build a nice family, you teach me allot,


30/4/2012, is the day you leave us, you surely will be miss. Love you. 

Friday, March 23, 2012

美好

我是如此不相信人家说的美好,
爱情的美好,人性的美好,成长的美好,纯洁的美好....尤其人性的美好.
算了吧,叫我悲观主义者

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Surprise??

Will there be any surprise tomorrow?

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Graduate

Accomplish my own task- i graduate my advanced diploma without failing any subjects.

If you follow up my post in early years, i have repeating 1 year course during my Diploma..

The whole process of repeating course is not fun at all, been look down by some lectures, and friends, some even treat me as "bad boy" as i keep on failing and failing.

i can said i m a "kiasu" types person, so with those negative words,100% changes on my personality,from a laid back and lazy type, i become a fierce contender, and dedicated person. Proudly to said, during my repeating years and my second year, my position for whole course is no 1 and no 2.

With this "flame', i took up my own challenge of complete my advanced diploma without any failing subject, and thanx God, and dedication of mine, i done it.

For the up coming UK degree, i m sure, i ll pass it.

For those who fail before, one phrase for u all : failing at first step will always happen, the second step you took, you may be success, if you give up on the first step,you cant accomplish anything. Never give up till the end, work hard for it.


Sunday, January 8, 2012

Nice Quote from Jimmy

人生那么短,凭什么让不重要的人影响了自己重要的心情

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

13 December

Agree with devilish no 13
13 Dec been label as dark day,
Devil is playing the weather,
he caught me in the rain cage,
blocking my way with water ,
whole body is wet,
with my endurance ,i manage to escape
and went back to my castle.

Now devil and his buddy's sick,
on their way to visit me.

I think he is insane,
as there a sign sound "devil not allow"
with hundred of archer on the Keep
thousand of horseman waiting behind the Gate
Devil will dont know what come after him..